http://www.imreallybored.com/community/index.php?app=blog Community Blog List Syndication Sun, 31 Jan 2010 06:28:51 +0000 lougan@imreallybored.com (im really bored.com :: the ambiguously addictive community) IP.Blog 60 Wed, 30 Dec 2009 18:09:00 +0000 if you suffer from depression. the obvious solution is. GET HELP... no need to be ashamed. wouldn't you rather get help and be happy than just absolutely miserable... YES... suck it up and get over yourself, don't take it out on other people. and don't act like other people don't understand what you're going through.

I have depression. I've had dysthymia and anxiety for over six years. so what if I've started taking medicine.. I'm HAPPY! and you're still sitting there wishing it all would end and you could just give up.... how can I help you if you won't help yourself.

& stop acting like other people's happiness is all your fault. Someone's happiness is their own responsibility, just like yours is. and you're never going to be happy with anyone in a relationship until you can be happy with yourself. END OF STORY.

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Sitting in the library watching this movie on the gentrification of a homosexual historical community for social urban geography.

My grandmother is extremely sick and has to move to Lincolnton to live with my aunt because she can't return to work. They aren't sure whats wrong with her, she just can't breathe. I haven't been home in 4 or 5 weeks and I probably won't get to see her before she moves. I hope she starts to feel better.

My sister just got home from Mexico last night.. visiting her fiance Fernando. I hope things are going well with them. I know they're looking forward to getting married this summer. Hopefully I'll be able to make it home if I go to NYC.

Speaking of NYC. Hopefully I get an internship!!

More than anything. I need a job though. I'm absolutely and totally broke and in debt. I have too much stuff going on with classes and organizations that I don't have time to work. So do I stay involved in charity work, etc, and build my resume for the future, or do I just go to class and go to work and not be in debt, but not do anything productive with my life, either?

I'm ready to be done with school and start paying off my debt!! Maybe go into the military. Which is seriously an interest of mine, believe it or not.

But everything I plan on doing is always in the future and I'm always stuck somewhere not able to make it happen... Not that college is stuck... but I'm a little tired of it right now! & Just ready to go back to Europe, or the Virgin Islands, or somewhere more exciting... I just want to travel
]]> Wed, 18 Mar 2009 20:33:07 +0000 I'm a bid kid now.
I feel so special.
Damn I'm bored.]]> Wed, 18 Feb 2009 18:33:57 +0000 Every penny in a well,every broken wish bone,

every 11:11 on a clock, every crossed finger,

every turn of a necklace pendant, every star in

the sky, every fallen eyelash, every blown out

candle, every wish I could make . . . . will never

give me [ y o u . ]
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So many times in my life, I have felt like I know and understand a heck of a lot. You could say I was an egotistical pompous ass, but each time I feel I have a strong understanding of the world, I am humbled. I believe that I have finally come to the realization that no matter how old I get, I won't understand a lot of things, and that there is so much that I am still in the process of learning.

When it comes to relationships with people, I am naive. I don't seem to understand the underlying reasons for people's actions. If I think someone is just being a friendly caring person, I find out later that it is rather for selfish intent. For example, because they have a crush on me and want to go out. Sometimes I wonder if women can just be friends with me. It seems like all the time, they either don't give a care towards me or they have a 'thing' for me. The presence of Brandy in my life is proof against that feeling though because she seems like an honest caring friend who doesn't have selfish intent.

And to my friends like Andrew, Brandy, Robert, Elyse, etc. , I often feel like I am an annoyance. Why? They keep on being my friends. They would probably stop if I really was that annoying no? Meh, perhaps it is just a combination of my lack of self-confidence and my poor ability to read other's feelings. I don't know why, but I have always felt that I am annoying and it seems to get me in ruts of depression.

I hate living without feelings of romance in my life. It tends to color everyday events in shades of gray. When I briefly went out with Amie, it lifted the gray and I felt really good. Don't get me wrong, I think Amie is a great girl, and I probably would have been very happy going out with her, but I need to be able to live happily without someone in my life. I need to feel like the world if full of vibrant colors all on my own. I can't depend on one person to lift the veil for me. Because of this, I don't think I can be in a romantic relationship right now. I hope though.... that this wont be a truth forever


Hmmm this blog seemed to cover many topics.... I wonder if there is an underlying connection between them?]]> Wed, 13 Jun 2007 22:10:48 +0000 She was my girl ever since I was 16. I had never even kissed another girl! I fell into a larger depression and started losing control of myself to anxiety attacks. Over the next week I got medical help, and anxiety was no longer kicking my ass.

Since then, I have been hanging out with friends left and right. Calling up old friends, that I would never of had the balls to call before. When Ashley broke up with me, I thought I would never be happy again. Amazingly only 3 weeks later, I am having some of the best days of my life. On myspace, my profile song is "Beer in Mexico" and I think it describes where I am at in life right now. I have spent so many years of my life not going out and having as much fun as I can have. I need a break from stress, and I hadn't realized how much of a stress factor my relationship was.

So yeah.... this summer has really turned 180 and its looking like I am going to grow a lot as a person in these three short months. I am looking very forward to it ]]> Sat, 02 Jun 2007 21:50:19 +0000
Look at me, all i can talk about is IRB. I suppose thats true because I really can't talk about work. Its been rough. I don't feel that I am ... living up to my full potential. Someone once said that I could be the best. I have been the best. But I dont feel like it. I feel like I'm letting my team down... I dunno why... I just do. But you never know. I know I can be the best S3 in the nation. Not that anyone knows what an S3 is... haha. Senior Sales Specialist. We'll find out what I'm made of in June.

Am I really the one who can lead Opry Mills to its former glory? I hope so. Now its time to come up from the ashes and be the best team we can be.]]> Sat, 02 Jun 2007 06:18:04 +0000 I've finally added all that is needed to the website. Now the long long long long process of fixing all the bugs. But that shouldnt be too bad. The only serious one I have found is in the profiles. But I suppose I'll have invision take a look at it, see if there is anything they can do. Otherwise, it seems to be working great!

This month IRB hit its all time high of 1.1 million hits, which is pretty impressive. Its nice to the boards back from the dead. Hopefully we can keep this up all summer, and attract new members come the back to school rush. As many members know, IRB gets boosts in posts 3 times a year... Start of the summer, Start of School in the Fall, and Start of school in the Winter. We shall see how things happen. I wish Zach was here to see it.

Here are the stats for IRB this month.


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